Lord I Believe
“When I came to you, sisters and brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God. For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling. My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit’s power, so that your faith might not rest on men’s wisdom, but on God’s power.” (1 Corinthians 2:1-5 NIV)
But Help Me
There are two things I can’t stand. Compromise and Contradiction. First contradiction. If I say something, I mean it. I don’t want to change my mind or go against what I believe. I want to do what I say and say what I mean. It’s that simple. Second compromise- I don’t want to settle for less or let alone nothing. I don’t want to miss out and I don’t want to fail. I don’t want to sell my soul and lose my spirit. I don’t want to compromise my morals for money. I don’t want crumbs or the leftovers. It’s that simple. Over the past seven years I did a turn around, I have contradicted myself and I have compromise my life. I didn’t want to do that. I fought it tooth and nail. But I lost to a higher power who is GOD!
My story is very simple nothing new. It is about a battle, a struggle between God and me. Over the next chapters I will explain how you can compromise and contradict your life but for the greater good, God’s sake. I battled depression and contemplated suicide. I was at my lowest and no one, but God brought me back! This book is my testimony of how I followed my own will and turned my back on God’s will. I now understand that all of the discipline, all of the trials, pain and the pruning were all worth it so I could testify of God’s goodness. I knew God but I didn’t understand God. I believed God but I didn’t trust God. I had my own expectations but God had a different expectancy of my life.
This is my confession, of my unbelief!